Feel, not all those wander are lost

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Sometimes it's really hard describing what you want to say, and you just feel flustered without any solid reason. I hardly find music to be relaxing or soothing in such conditions, it even worsens the feel. Rarely you feel like really talking to people, rare even that you find it interesting. Since I'm into my own business, the time-frequency has changed. You get the impression your time-frequency is of a fly or an insect rather than a human; you feel that an even was long ago while it has been just a few hours ago. Such a feel begets a certain sensation that make you shiver in horror they way you're living your life.

The word-count for 'feel' in the above para is 5. Interesting.

I use the word 'adhoc' a lot for such living still I don't get the courage to shut out the doors of such life on me. For a couple of years, I'd been of the view that long-term planning does not always breed results which in turn, unrealisingly of course, compelled to stop planning my life at all. Like having target in specific in life. I had to adjust and compromise a lot. Just the last night, speaking to Jakob Steiner, I realised that perhaps you should also have long-term goals. Like when making a decision, you should also consider that how you would feel about it after 5 years, and what would be subsequent results on your life in general.

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Back to the base and old blogger..

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

It's been fun (funny?) to try out a blog system of my own only for me to realise afterwards that I do not have time and energies to keep up the mounting tasks of managing such a pretentious adventure. I'll however keep the domain for a while.

*sings to self*

tu ab talak sitaroon mein ji rahi thi kahin
tujhe zameen per utara gaya hai mere liye!

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Transformation!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

From now on, I'll bloggin at my new home http://www.YasirHussain.com! :~)

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Let go!

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Learn to let go of the things and people you're on the verge of losing. Let-go is the essence of mortality; of change. Mortality, after all, is not death but a change.

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اب کے سال

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More or less 5

Monday, December 19, 2005

It's been long since Hasan tagged me, else I would not have been revving all this. More or less, considerably less or more than more or less, I don't think I fit in the format well, bear with me.

5 years ago:
Having graduated from school in flying colors, I found it hard to cope with an extra dose of liberty at college. This destroyed my grades and had literally sunk my ship. The year was also marked with the emergence of a new self - the formula didn't change but the outfit did. And the 'first love'.

1 year ago:
Frantic excutions of last minute details before actually moving to Lahore. New city, new equation. Sub squar zero!


5 Songs which I know all the words to:
There's not a single song I can remember all the words of. However, there are some songs I rhyme a lot.

- Jay Mein Hondi Dholna ~ Noor Jahan
- Aa Kahin Door Chalay Jayein Hum ~ some Indian movie
- Long Gone Days ~ Mad Season
- Aay Ajnabi ~ Dil Se
- Aay Jazba-e-dil gar mein chahoon ~ Nayyera Noor

5 snacks I enjoy:
- Pakoray
- Potato Chips/French Fries
- Gol Gappy
- Pop Corn (if they count)
- Samosay

5 Things I’d like to do with 100$ million:
This depends on the means I get the money. I'm not into some lottery type thingy, and I reckon by the time I'll earn 100$ million myself, I won't need it anymore. Anyhow, this is for your amusement. In the order the events will happen, most likely.

- Buy a balloon
- A truck of Ice Cream (I'm by no means joking about first two!!)
- Go to Hajj/Umrah with my family
- Donate most the money to charity/welfare trusts etc.
- Invest rest in my business

5 places I would run away to:
- My mother
- Home
- Hide myself in Allah's home - Mecca
- Isloo
- Pyramids in Egypt

5 thing I would never wear:
I take a different approach towards the word 'wear'. To me it's more your self than fluffy things you put on. Enough, here's the list:

- Long hair
- Skin-tight shirts or jeans
- Stiff head
- Leniency toward my students
- Flattery


5 Favourite TV shows:
I abandoned the telly beast long ago.

5 Greatest joys:
- Sleeping in my mother's lap
- Going to Umrah/Hajj
- A call from my family
- Appreciation/accolodes for my efforts
- Having my business established like I dreamt

5 favorite toys:
- My little daemon, PC (I'm not Pixel!)
- Pen
- Keys/Key chain
- Notepad
- A little fantasy

5 people I am tagging:
All the people, I want to tag are already tagged. So I guess the story ends here.

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A homesick's year in thoughts

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Another year comes to the end. I turned 22. To be honest, I’m somehow afraid of getting older. Everyone’s afraid of mortality. It feels like sand sweeping under your feet standing on the shore. Nostalgia is the enemy of future. One year since I abandoned my city and come to Lahore in search of my destiny. I believe to achieve it someday, but what then? What if I don’t? You shouldn’t think of defeat, is the rule of the game. I played whatever’s required to achieve my goal; I think I’m changing and I don’t like it much.

I guess, it’s important to evaluate your day at the end. Rather critical to do the same with the year. But shouldn’t we be more easy, let-it-be type of people? Isn’t it less cumbersome? What I’ve learnt, it never goes as planned. But you got to plan; otherwise, you plan to fail. At least, you’ve prepared for one scenario, if not more. Thin border line between staying focused and going overboard to plan your future. Nothing is incidental but you can only connect the dots backward. But every year when I sit to assess my own self and what I’ve achieved during the period, I found myself at the same spot I was before. I feel like moving in a ring, only the circle gets wider and wider every time. I want my center!!

No more New Year resolutions, I’m bad at them. I’m not good with people either. I’m not diplomatic; I tend to keep things simple. Life, acts, words, relationships. No pun intended. I’m sailing high at last, but one good season doesn’t mean the world, does it? Sorry, don’t mind me, I’m an old cynic.

I’m trying to go back home for the last three weeks, yes, three weeks. But hasn’t made it as yet. Now, it’s again postponed to Monday. I’m sick, literally, for four days. Has recovered some bits so no need to worry. But I really need a break from work. I got to go home. I’m officially homesick!

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what the heck!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

So, traditionally, this might suck as well but this is a shitty world. You gotta watch youself, mind you. People tend to promise what they can't deliver, at all. Or perhaps, don't want to. But rather more important is ending the term on a positive note. Well, it's not related to the post actually but one of the good young writers I silently admire has quit writing for his blog, or atleast says so. What's wrong with people, when people start admiring they somehow become a jughead. Anyways, if detracked is the fate, I just recalled what I marked when we passed out from the school:

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Common Sense

Friday, November 25, 2005

Smudgy here reminded me of a chain-riddle heard when I was a child. I'm not sure if I can deliver it perfectly now, but anyhow, here it is:

Q1: How do you put a Giraffe in a fridge?
Ans: Open the door, put Giraffe inside, close the door.

Q2: How do you put an Elephant in a fridge?
Ans: You blurted "open the door, put Elephant inside, close the door"? Wrong answer! The right answer is: Open the door, pull Giraffe out, put Elephant in.

See, common sense! Okay, third question. Don't think for too long, though.

Q3: A freight plane is carrying electronics, suddenly it starts jolting. Pilot says that the plane is overloaded and we need to get rid of the heaviest item. What item would they throw out?
Ans: Fridge. Because it has elephant in it!

Q4: Today is Lion King's birthday and every animal in the jungle is to attend his birthday party. Everyone's there but one is missing. Can you tell who?
Ans: Elephant. Because he's in the fridge, remember.

Easy one, eh?

Q5: A guy is standing beside a pool, just as he's to jump into the water, he dies. Why?
Ans: Fridge falling from the sky hits him.

Q6: You're to cross through a stream in the jungle filled with crocodiles. There's no bridge or boat, how would you cross it?
Ans: Swim! Remember, crocodiles are attending Lion King's birthday party!

I'm sorry if this causes mental torture, but if you're a kid or just had an overdose of caffeine, I hope you can see the riddle through.

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of attitudes

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Somehow I feel that kids today have no respect for self and others. I'm not old enough to pass a judgement, but I get the feeling. You try to be nice with them and they reckon 'free ho rahay ho'. Get a life man! You're still a toddler in the pool and haven't achieved anything in life; if your ancestors were something (that's they, not you) and there's a car under your ass (which is definitely your papa's), doesn't make everybody in the world turn to you, rotten egg! Oh, I still want to be nice with other kids and not let one bad incident make a dent in my behaviour. Somehow, I just can't digest this angry-young-man-for-no-apparent-reason phenomenon. Perhaps, you can help me.

A while back in my early teens, I also had this I-am-out-this-world tumor in my head. Took me three years of sweeping mosque's floor to cure that. I believe that Madrassah system is effective in a way that it brings out the individual in you; not same as our schools where you're generalized with thousand others. In Madrassahs, everyone gets what he deserves; in addition to the bests sweeping the floors to get their heads back on planet earth. No really, I loved the job but still was a jughead; told you, took me three years! If I'm mild (now), that's not by default but by choice. Say I'm a by-product of Madrassah system, you enlightened moderate!

Knowing what to say when is not always enough. You should also be aware of when to refrain from saying what. If you want a crash course, ring me up! My angst is not directed toward individuals, but attitudes in general. Holding yourself back when you CAN hurt the other is sometimes hard, but that's what is taught in our religion. Forgive, so one the Day of Judgement Allah may forgive you too. Most of you would be saying 'cut that religious talk jerk' but I simply can't; I'm not moderate and englightened? Not at all! Wanna flame? Sure, go ahead. I DO receive flame SMS from frustrated-kids-in-the-grown-men's-shoes, only that I don't get time to send back a nice reply. Awww.. I'm enlightened, moderate! No?

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